It's been a while since I've last posted. I started my senior year of college, hoping to start off on the right foot but it seems like I've been on the wrong one all along. Maybe it was the dose of hormones mothernature gave to me at the age of 13, but I've been so crazed when it came to finding the right one. Every guy seemed like the right one. But now I realized all along that that mentality was also on the wrong foot. With things like Facebook and twitter, I've been focusing on other people's lives and how other people viewed me. And now from that I set myself free. I take a deep breath to calm my stress, to see what is important in life, to have patience, to appreciate things as they come, to help others, to make a difference, to maintain this smile on my face and the love that I have for life. My mom said I had mature when I got my period and the age of 13 but all that did was make me more insecure. More self-conscious when it came to boys. The love of life that I had turned into a love of men. And ever since then, I came to realize that if I never were to wed, I'd still be happy. I will appreciate it when the time for me to settle down will come. Hoping whoever the other person may be, will love me eternally. But as of now, I don't need to find my soulmate. Today is the day for me. The day I set myself free from my own beliefs, focus on me. Live the oldschool life. I AM HAPPY.

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"And I've always lived like this, keeping a comfortable, distance. And up until now, I had sworn to myself that I'm content, with loneliness...........because none of it was ever worth the risk"

Perfectly Lonely =]

Alone doesn't really mean alone.
For me, it means I am with myself & God, and there is nothing I shall fear.

Nothing is for granted, and everything that has happened to me has taught me one thing or another.

I take risks (in pretty much everything) and I never second guess, I know what the consequences are...I know what the rewards are....either way....I grow.
All my experiences have made me who I am, for better or for worse.

Everything happens for a reason, yes I live by this generic excuse to fly through life without regrets or worries. I have this sense for knowing when to run away. When not to take a risk and look the other way.

I'm old enough to know when its simply not worth it. Sometimes I am wrong. Yes, I'm not perfect. I get hurt or disappointed.

I wish there were answers to everything, but no one is all-knowing, except for him ^^^. && through his strength, all I know for sure is.....that LIVING is only living, if you focus on the moment.

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I hate liars, fuck love, I'm tired of tryin....my heart big but it beat quiet...everytime we left alone it's an awkward silence.......

(Wrong) Kind of Love

Don’t leave me guessing

This lust and fantasy
Leaving me empty
Confused on how to think or feel

Doesn’t matter how I feel

Drunk with love

This is wrong.

Calling out for you, only to find
There is no answer
My mind invaded with thoughts
So cruel and unrefined

Trying to convince me otherwise

But you knew all along

This was wrong.

I can no longer feel my body
Slowly I fade in and out of reality
In an instant it fades away
My heart empty

My soul in a daze
Now I lay here; wondering where I went
Wrong.

Thousand Miles

Wind blowing in my hair.
Music sending me along...
Thousands of miles to go, won't stop, until the city lights are no more.

Cluttered thoughts free my mind
Away from it all, I feel so at home
The wind blows on my face,
Traveling
through
my
soul.

From the pain and hurt I have fled
No need to look through your rearview
when your moving ahead.
No need to be scared of the bumps on the road.
Drive without fear,
The beauty of life is the uncertain and unknown.

Doesn't matter where this trip takes me
I will leave my fears and doubts at the door
Even with a thousand miles to go,
Happiness has never been so close.

Being led by faith isn't blind
I breathe in and get high.
Living is a thrill, it's about time you join the ride.

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